ahhh blog i have missed you. i have missed writing and using this place to vent. most of you know my life has been somewhat of a soap opera the past few months. here's what i have to say about all that--

i'm learning that the truth always comes out. i'm learning if your intentions are good, you'll probably be okay. and life isn't perfect, but i want to be able to say at the end of the day i did the right thing.

i've learned that people will wrong you. outright hurt you on purpose. we can't stop that though. we can't control what others will do or say to us. we can, however, control what we do. so i've learned to keep moving forward when i am wronged, keep loving myself despite what others say and to always be the best mom i can be. 

and probably the most important thing i've learned is that when people do hurtful things to you, it usually has nothing to do with you and everything to do with them. 

i have had issues with the same person for years. tried so many things with this person to communicate, solve problems, and to give her the benefit of the doubt. yesterday everything came to a head and i get it now. this person is never going to change and be a decent person. it's just not going to happen. i can't control that. what i can control is her in my life. i can control that to an extent. i can make her involvement minimal to protect myself and my children. 

i hope she can get some help, and maybe one day take responsibility for the turmoil and hurt she has caused. i won't be holding my breath for this apology though. i'm letting her go and i wish her the best. until my children turn 18 and can make their own decisions i will protect them from her too.

onto.a.good.note.

i have several recipes to most in the next week and i want to share our christmas :)