i have been through some crazy health issues the past---well geez it feels like 3 months or so. it has been hard and i think it has left me a little depressed. i'm good now, i'm in a great place health wise. i'm on a combination of heart meds that is working well and my pulse is a regular 80's now.
so when i was sick i had to surrender control of a lot of things. like cooking and cleaning and what i regularly do with my kids. that was hard. to sit back and watch someone else do it and not do it my way. that causes anxiety let me tell you. in the end, though, all that mattered was that it got done. i learned a big lesson that it doesn't have to be my way and i'm happy i did :)
so what am i up to now? well i'm slowly getting back into my mama groove. last night i made burgers and grilled them and i was on cloud 9 just getting to cook. i'm going slowly into it but cooking is such a hobby of mine i'm excited. and it's summer. it's time to make applesauce cake and made homemade ice-cream.
i'm working on my pink notebook i blogged earlier about. see, blake is 10 ya know, and i've decided i want him to do more housework this summer. but the thing is, i want it done my way lol. so yes, i'm so anal that i'm writing out complete instructions on how i want him to clean his bathroom. he has really bonded with his lil brother liam who just turned 4. they play outside together every single day and he is great with him. i want to reward him for all this great stuff he is doing.
so liam did turn 4 and on june 13th sawyer will be 2 :) their party is planned for a couple weeks from now. we are having a cowboy party. i'm going to wear a pink cowboy hat and i want to find a gun holster hehe. i think this party will be fun and might be the last one i can get away with combining so yea, i'm having a blast getting things for it. i even ordered a cover for our front door that looks like the entrance to a saloon. for gifts i'm going for outdoor toys. pool things etc. thank the lord we have a pool in the apartment complex and it's big and beautiful and i can't wait to get to it. that, of course, requires a cute bag and beach towels for the kids, and a cute pair of sunglasses for me----i don't dare take my coach glasses down there lol----ya know, the stuff every girl needs to hit the pool :)
sawyer is a little cutie patootie. he waves all the time and says a few words and dang he is just so cute. he and liam fight a lot but i can't help but smile when i hear them because it's so freakin cute. sawyer also pushes cars around and makes little engine sounds. ah the cuteness.
i need a new dining room set like yesterday. sawyer climbs out of his high chair and the kids sit so close they fight. my 2 big goals this summer is to get that and go to georgia to visit my family and friends :)
is anyone going to watch dallas? seriously dude and dudettes i cannot wait for this. that was my friday night, dukes of hazzard and dallas. i hope it's good and stays around. there are two things i miss. game shows in the morning and more dramas that i can relate to at night.
i'm reading two novels right now. my mom's book which is fabulous and addictive and 50 shades of grey which is a book every woman needs to read. e.v.e.r.y. woman. go get it. better yet, save up and get yourself a nook. i can't tell you how awesome it is to just think of a book and download it instantly or even a magazine. and it's cheaper!
alright, i think i've rambled on enough here. i'm going to pick up my living room. oh btw i need a new rug for my living room. i want a yellow one. doesn't that sounds so 70's, so three's company? i think it will look fabulous with my brown leather furniture.
over and out peeps :) write me if you have time :)
